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10:30 am
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Mommy can i go out and kill tonight?
Hmmm. so im not getting deployed anymore.... a different company from my unit is going. that means i prolly wont go for a few years. great right? im not so sure. i might volounteer to go. it would be a waste to be infantry sitting around at home when thiers work to be done. i dont think my family or friends would approve of me sending myself with an unfamiliar unit. i still have to try and get airborne in my contract. seeing as how i wont be in high school next year ill have all year to train. i could keep getting shipped out and going to different schools like airassult, or foreward observer school. if i did those 2 i would go to ranger school. anyway we shall see what next year brings. im thankful i have a choice. for this weekend i think im gonna go with caleb and go party in mattawan. saturday i have to go scouting and prolly do some target shooting to keep my skills sharp. sunday im definetly hangin out with matt. Andrew if ur not busy friday u should come with me and caleb.
Current Mood:  calm
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08:02 am
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Just try and stop me
this weekend was ok. nothing really stunning happened. i blew my brothers fucking mind lol. i owe him a party for being cool at nicks house. i met some new people recently. gonna be meeting more! actually some people did make this a pretty good weekend. sundays my lil secret. hmm lets see whats new. jasen wants me to come over so we can cook hamburgers on the grill and play video games, and he wants me to move in and help his family pay rent and shit. im considering it cuz we would have some fuckin awsome parties, right andrew? andrew rix has gotta hangout with us seein as how he didnt last weekend. i gots to take off for the weekend to ft custer though. i hope the katrina victims are gone i want my barracks back lol. umm as far as the week goes im just going to the Air National Guard base on wendsday. i need a new id because i got promoted! i hopefully will be getting promoted next month too. pfc sounds pretty good. i wanna at least make corprol before i come back from iraq. friday im supposed to go to sarahs and watch ammityville horror before i go to drill. and this is where it gets confusing. i dont know what to do as far as women. do i try and get with sarah or, wait for someone else or, no one at all. This is how it pretty much breaks down. If i go out with sarah life would be grand and i would be happy, but im leaving this summer for 5-8 weeks. then i come back for like a month and off to war i go. i also might have a new destination. i might be goin to bosnia. wtf is happening in bosnia?!?! anyway before i get off track, thats kind of a delema because i dont wanna hurt anyone. the problem in waiting for other people is i would prolly just have a bunch of 2 week flings which i dont mind but i dont wanna hurt anyones feelings. and in being with no one id be lonely, sounds kinda selfish dont it? leave a comment if you have an oppinion, help would be appreciated.
Current Mood:  confused
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02:28 pm
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Falling Faster than Before
man this weekend was hardcore. lets start from the begining. we went to pick up andrew muhfuckin rix on friday. me shawn emily and andrew were drivin over to jasens and shawn was crazy headbangging and he got people to flip him off laugh and be scared. when we got to jasens we talked to the stoners who were already stoned. i got some alchol for the event. after jasens me an andrew went to a movie with sarah and sandra. i saw jeff munger there! he gave me his numbers i think we might hangout sometime. waiting was one of the best movies i have ever seen! after that we went back to jasens (me andrew sarah) i drank a lil too much. i was so numb, i was glad sarah was there to babysit me lol. saturday was cool too. i think i caught caleb jerkin it in the morning. me and andrew couldnt stop laughing. we went to 4th coast with tanner caleb pat sonny myself and andrew. that was alot of fun. then we went to karis. it was pretty cool hangin out with everyone, i invited kari and mindy to come party with us next friday or saturday at jasens house. i bet karis awsome after a couple of drinks, not that she isnt already. i called sarah on the way back from karis and she met us at joshes. i was pretty tore up then too, sarahs such a light weight. i had tons of fun mosh dancing with pat and tanner. im glad we didnt destroy the house. i think the best part of the weekend was waking up next to sarah. she was all cold and i had went to bed upstairs in lisa's room. i told her it was warm in bed with me....... i had forgotten how soft her lips are.....
Current Mood:  Can it really get any better?
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07:46 am
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Happy vs. Hate
well i had a pretty good weekend. friday i have trouble remebering but i know it was fun. i went half way through school and emily came and hungout with me till school was over at my house, then she went to pick up jasen and shawn. then they all came over for awhile and then i went to jasens for awhile. i sat and talked to jasen. i missed hangin out with him hes hardcore. then tim and tom came over and they smoked a lil. Pat and Tanner showed up after work, thier reall good friends. I had a lil rum, thx tom, and wandered the streets with the group previously mentioned except without emily. we went over to andys house. andy is such a funny mofo. there were a bunch of people i didnt know there, beer dosent taste so great but you gotta improvise right? i was so loud that night. we wandered into the neighbors yard at like 2 or so and threatened to call the cops on us so i walked to joshes to hang out with him and caleb. i woke up saturday morning and went to dennys with caleb and pat, it took forever to get our food. then after dennys we went and got Andrew. im glad he hung out with us this weekend. i want to hangout with him more often, hes pretty hardcore. we went over to my house and sonny called! i havent hung out with him in forever so we all went to the mall. he told me about his trip to india, sonnys and indian from india, his family owns the sunny marts maybe youve heard of those. i saw bree at the mall! i keep seeing her places. i saw her on friday and saturady. one of her friends told her i had a nice ass. score. then we went to fourth coast. me and sonny had andrew crackin up. he was so fucking loud with his laughing im supprised we didnt get kicked out! caleb showed up to partake in the good times. "recap, so you cant work the register?" then we went to jasens. they were all blown when i got there. there was alot of people again when i got there. Andrew was quiet but andy got him to laugh alot. "Dude are you a singer? cuz you have an awsome laugh." i saw kaylin there. im going to ask her if she wants to comeover today, im not avoiding it anymore. then me and andrew and tanner went to my house and stayed up all night. sunday i went to the mall with tanner andrew matt and shannon. i cant even bare to look anymore, people change practically over night. i went to andrews after the mall even though i had plans with matt which was pretty shitty but i couldnt tolerate the presence anymore. i was mistaken. sorry matt i didnt know we were just going to hangout. maybe ill call this week or something if ur not busy. at any rate i had a pretty good time at andrews. he said i could come over more often, i feel honored as one of the only people to go into his house. kari invited me to her house on saturday. i cant wait! i missed hangin out with her alot. we should have a drink sometime kari. today i think esthers comin over, maybe kaylin too. "I hate you
You always think that you are right
Everything you ever promised to not do you did
You fucked me up so just admit it
You are just another bitch and I know that you did it
How could you let us split in two
I was just another game so fuck you
There is nothing I could do
You're so tough, so bad, so cold
But now you eat your words
Don't try
Telling all your fucking lies
'Cause I
Make you eat your words and die
Don't try
Telling all your fucking lies
'Cause I
Make you eat your words and die
Think you're better but I know that you will never get it
This page will turn and you'll regret it
Everything you ever promised to not do you did
How could you let us split in two" ill nino
Current Mood:  numb
Current Music: ill nino "Te Amo - I hate you"
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10:50 am
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See That Man With The Black Beret
man, im tired as hell today. i wish i had a roll off large bubble wrap. bored outta my mind. cant wait for the weekend, hopefully something fun will come of it. i got that interview next week wensday, hope that goes well. i want to work more with the guard lately. i cant really think of anything i can do. i wish i couldve gone straight through ait and basic. im all split up. i wanna be training or making a difference. i feel like im wasting my time sitting at home with nothing to do. i think im going to call the kalamazoo signal armory today and see if thiers any work to be done. hopefully if things dont work out with this best buy job i could work with the military. ummm yesterday was pretty good. i watched constantine at esthers house. i think im alergic to her basement. i started sneezing and my left eye turned all red and itchy, attractive huh? i got home bout 12 or so. i hope i have fun this weekend. Andrews ass is coming to hangout with me and my friends this weekend, hopefully. i dont think he knows yet but its not like he gets a choice, me and my friends are kidnapping masters. so friday or saturday ill hangout with andrew. i dunno bout the other day. sunday im going to hangout with matt all day. thats all i can think of right now. maybe ill get a hold of tra and go to a party or something with him. call me this weekend if anyone wants to hangout so im not lonely all weekend.
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09:00 am
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play, stop, rewind, and tape over the past
hey everyone, i know i havent written alot lately so here it goes, my weekend was interesting. i stayed in old ww2 barracks because the hurricane katrina victims had ours. i dont hate them for it. i had some good training, i did alot of team obstacles to try and move ammo crates from point A to B and make sure all my team members survive. i was in the same barracks as josh caleb and squared! it made it fucking awsome. i need to run more. i think im going to find extra work with the guard. ummmm sunday i came home and went to the mall with caleb brittney and tanner. then we went and played pool for an hour and a half. oh yeah i saw jenni at the mall on the friday before i left, that was nice i hadnt seen her in awhile. monday was pretty good, i went to school and of course teaching at the middle school makes every day a good day to me. then nae nae, tanner and i went to gerbers and youngs. im glad renae went with us, i love my little sister. then tanner came over after work and we went and got a jets pizza bitches! if you havent had it you gotta try it. i talked to ester! that made me pretty happy. were gonna go see a movie and go to the mall today. were gonna go see 40 yearold virgin. i hope it goes well. as far as the rest of the week.... i wanna go to shannons to scan my fucking pictures and put em on my damn my space! i wanna pick up andrew this weekend or this week and force him to hang out with me and my evil friends. wanna go to matts house this weekend because i havent seen matt in forever. im really happy and excited. i think this week is going to be a great week, and maybe a step in the right direction.
Current Mood: so happy my veins might pop
Current Music: Disturbed "Ten Thousand Fists"
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12:17 am
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June 27
(hes sent me a few others but, they are irrelevant to you)
Dear Shannon,
I still havent recieved a letter from you I guess the mail system is really slow. I hope when I get your letter it tells me about what youve been doing. Also about Andrew's new crush and if he's gonna ask her out. You should send me a picture of you guys because I only hvae like 2 or so. I've written Renae a lot too. I hope she writes me back, I'll be quite upset if she doesnt. I'm going to see if I can convince herthat I'm cool enough to hangout with. I really enjoyed the last few days I had with her and you. I wish I wouldve had more money to give her so she could have more fun.
Anyway on to the part where I tell you about how my training is going! Its really easy and we never get in trouble. I Bet thats what you want to hear, but this is how it really goes. I wake up at 4 am every morning. My morning is about an hour of physical trainingthen on to the daily training. Todays training was hell. I got to be the first man in the NBC chamber. They locked me in a room with my gas mask on, it was ok at first and then my knuckles wrists and the top of my hands started burning. Then my ears and neck too. They said it was to give me confidence in my gas mask against CS-1 gas. They said the effects were increased because I was in a small air tight room. Then the real shocker came, One of the drill sergents removed my mask and made me stay in there. My eyes felt like they were on fire, so did my whole face I couldnt breathe and was sputtering and spitting trying to breathe. I ended up drooling all over my uniform. The kept me in there 30 seconds which seemed like an hou. I took me all day to cough up the gas. My eyes stopped burning after like 20 minutes but were still really watery. They said the chemical was a nerve agent.
I didnt really care I was just glad I didnt have to go in twice. After that we were pretty much off for the night but someone fucked up and left a sock out for that we recieved what our big black drill sergent likes to call "corrective training" for 2 hours straight. This consisted of holding our M-16 directley in front of us, push ups, rifle over head hold, and stay in squatted position with rifle in front of us. My feet are swolen like constantly. I cant feel my heels anymore. I cant wait to be done. when you get this I'll be at 6 weeks left. I miss you.
Love Gary.
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02:49 pm
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June 10th 2005
Gary wanted me to update his journal with every letter he wrote me.
I just got the first one today in the mail.
Dear Shannon,
I finally got some free time to write a letter. Anyway today was on of the more interesting days, I recieved all my shots and got a hair cut. I look fairly goofy blad. it makes me look older, My bodies fairly sore and I imagine that will be the condition it stays in untill I get home.
Today I got like 8 shots and had my blood drawn twice. I got one in my forearm on the left side, and on my shoulder on the leftside. I got one in the back of the arms twice and one on my right shoulder too. Then then most painfull one I got directily in the ass! It was amazingly painful. They told me to massage my ass and it would be okay because its thick medicine, I'm still sitting kind of funny.
I dont have a return address yet so I'll keep writing you untill I do. I love you and I miss you; I'll see you soon.
Gary
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04:10 pm
[Link] | Ping Pong Ball42 (4:09:24 PM): Gary is a big boy.
Ping Pong Ball42 (4:09:27 PM): Big manly arms of power.
Thanks Andrew I appreciate that
I love shannon.
Current Mood:  horny
Current Music: Niki FM - Hawthorne Heights
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02:41 pm
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Quote Day Horah!!!
heres some quotes from today....
Me- "dude pat theres a book here that teaches you how to gain 30 lbs of muscle in six weeks!!!" Pat- "Then you will poop small."
Caleb- "Hey Gary! 90 kilos bitches, im a genius."
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09:06 am
[Link] | hmm. sitting in physics researching eye disorders. well kinda. i dont understand too well what eyes have to do with wave lengths but then again im not the teacher. well yesterday i was getting out of school and josh was giving me a ride home. little did i know what he had devised. we were driving down to my house and he passed the entrance to my home i looked at him and said hey u passed my house. he said oh sorry man im kinda out of it today. i said ok go in the meredith entrance. he passed it.... i said god damnit josh now we have to wait at the light so we can go in the sprinkle entrance! he said sorry. the light turned green and he went throught the intersection. i looked at him and said u stupid jew what are you doing!? he said son... youve just been drafted. i said into what. he said your gonna help me move. i asked him why he didnt just ask me. he replied that if he asked it would give me a chance to say no. we had a good laugh. i destroyed a door in his house. one of those screen doors. broke the glass and the screen right out with a couch i was carrying. his mom was a lil mad, i told her she gets what she pays for (because she wasnt paying me not that it matters i just knew it would irritate her). then i went home and talked to shannon <---- i dont know if thats how u spell it apparently i spell her name wrong. any way then at eight at night i had to shovel my moms driveway, which i also didnt get payed for not that it matters.... then i talked to shannon real quick before i went to bed. i hope i get to see her today even if shes sick im gonna go to her house and watch movies with her or somethin. i hope to see the crew possibly this weekend. i wanna call and get everyone together on sunday i think. oh and i think im gonna start putting quotes of yesterday since i olnly every update my journal early in the day so there isnt that much time to get a good quote.
quote of yesterday: "hey gary do i look sexy in these girl pants?"-Jason Alexander
Current Mood: energetic
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10:23 am
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school=fuckt in face
im in 3rd hour bus math nearly dieing of bordem. anyway i had a fairly decent winter break. not much to do with out a car but i got around. i had tanner stay the night a few times and we played vid games all day. i went to shannons alot, i always enjoy doing that. christmas was better than i expected. shannon got me a shirt a sweater ummm a necklace, cd, and a christmas tree that she made. i thought it was one of the nicest gestures i had ever recived so im leaving it up all year round. matt called me to go to his new years party which was unexpected because we didnt talk all of break but im glad he did because it was fun. he got me presents which made me feel bad because i didnt get him anything. he got me a bible and a cd of FOAMY. i told him gettin me the bible was just gonna give me more ammo but who knows maybe ill be enlightened. newyears night i stayed at shennons. her parents made a huge arrangement over it..... gay.... oh well thats pretty much break.
Current Mood: cheerful
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07:49 am
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quiz bitches fill it out or else
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
Current Mood: because i can be
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10:23 am
[Link] | well, today i feel pretty damn good. i dont know why i just do. being happy kicks ass. anyway, yesterday was pretty cool. school was gay but i got to go to shannons house afterwards so its cool. we decorated christmas cookies. i had a pretty good time but i sucked at it so i only made 3 cookies... a fucked in face candycane, a homo sexual star, and an extraordinarily happy snow man, he had a penis.... then me and shannon watched the grinch on tv.. i didnt get to FINISH! the god forsaken movie because shannons mom made me leave early... it was a pretty good movie too. (im talking about the jim carey version.) any who its the end of class in two minutes so im gonna go sleep in seminar
Current Mood: cheerful
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10:29 am
[Link] | well im in class bout time to go in two minutes. had a fairly decent weekend. went to alexis' viewing and funeral. i got to see shannon. that made me really happy. got in a car accident. i feel bad about it cuz it was my grandmas car. i hope to see shannon today and decorate cookies with her mom cuz i never did that before.... sarah called me yesterday. made me angy trying to start stuff.... oh well talk to you later bitches.
Current Mood:  i dont really feel today
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11:50 am
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goodbye alexis...
well i went to school today... i heard in the morning when i had gotten there that my friend alexis was in a car accident. everyone told me she was ok and we would visit her in the hospital after school.. it worried me a little but i just went to first hour. when first hour rolled around we had an announcement that alexis died in a car accident. i didnt think that they were talking about the same alexis untill they described her. i went down to the caffeteria and left class to go hangout with jason and shawn. jasen took it harder than anyone else. so i came home early. i took it harder than i expected myself too. i dont belive in god, but i do hope for alexis's sake that there is something after life for her to go....
Current Mood:  distressed
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07:09 pm
[Link] | Thanksgiving at Shannon's was pretty good her Grandpa kinda creeped me out but otherwise it was okay, we played scattagories I lost horribly contemplated murdering everyone at the table jk just Danielle.
Helped my family make thanksgiving dinner they had sweet potatoes, a turkey, a couple pies, green beans I believe, ummm I think tomorrow I'm gonna attempt to go to the mall and fight crazy after thanksgiving shoppers at GNC and probably in the parking lot too.
Current Mood: content
Current Music: damnit - blink182
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11:04 am
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